Diary Of A Tattoo Model-pt70

03 September 2017 by Femke Fatale

My weekend was badass again! So badass I have slept all through my Monday! Ahha even missed my evening walk with the cats! They weren't happy about it hehe.

I went to F1 with my mom, brother & 2 of his best friends!
On Thursday we visited the pit lane and met some of the F1 drivers! Was pretty cool! Hangouts and sun... good start of the weekend, Friday was a free practise day, so we watched it from all over the circuit. We walked all day and enjoyed the view from all over the place. The Spa Francorchamps circuit is the best in the world! The highs and lows are ace.

Saturday was the qualifying day
Lewis did great, as usual... he is so good on our Belgian GP, as almost every year! He has as many pole positions in his career as Schumacher did! What an achievement! Hooray for Team44!!! When I got to the hotel I slept for 2 hours and then went to the Monster Energy head office to meet my bestie Jay and drive the truck to Brussels! When I left the hotel the bar dude probably thought I was on my way to work as a ... u know what ahhaha!! My mom tried to explain but her German is not that good ahha so he didn’t get it! LOL.. yeah yeah.. And I bet you know why I went to work for Monster.., yes, you know why.. the #moneyfight!

Mcgregor vs Mayweather
I enjoyed it! Mcgregor threw and received punches like a rockstar! He proved himself! Proud!!! Still impressed by Mayweather, he was bad assss, a real motherfucker! Like boxing was a piece of cake! Haha damn! He is already 40 and won his 50th battle! Never lost a camp! Legendary! I know Floyd was going to win but I also knew Mcgregor was going to give his best!!! Impressive! I don't care if people tell me it was all acting and fake and a sold fight, it entertained me! I had fun… whatever! Hehe.
After the fight we went to F1 to sample there! Hot fun day, finally got to work with my bestie Jay again! It had been a while! So my day was perfect, laughs, Lewis won, sun, ... win!!!! Good weekend for the Monster family! Mcgregor kicked ass, Lewis won! I think he can be the world champion again! I’m his biggest fan (haha I bet I’m not but hey, my mom is a bigger fan. Haha she got his name and dates of his world championships tattooed last Friday hahah!! Crazyyy! So she wins haha.

I’m at the gym, working out!
I have not been to my 'office' for ages, I feel it, my body is out of shape (yes I eat too much bad shit so I need my workouts to stay fit but hey, been lazy, had a little time off, felt a bit blah.. all excuses, ahha I know, but I’m back on track) and now I will workout 3x a week again! I can do it!!!!! Bring back the summer body! Ehhehe. 
Even though summer seems to be over.. hehe! It’s never too late to get back in shape! Maybe I should go on a holiday!!!;) 

I was watching the MTV VMA and my highlights were Pink and Jahred Leto!
I adored his speech about Chester & Chris, depression. He is right, you are not alone! We are all in this together! You know you have been high when you are feeling low! Many people have this, the suicide rate seems to go up lately;(
It is heart breaking! I know how it feels, I know how hopeless and alone it can make you feel! This is a recurring topic in my blogs, as it is so personal to me, it is part of me! I really hope all of you who suffer from this disease have someone to go to with your feelings! Whether it is your mom, best friend or psychiatrist! Whatever, as long as you have been heard, don't keep it to yourself! 

Pink also stole my heart.
With that story about her little daughter telling her she is the ugliest girl she knows.... it is sad to see kids have these problems already! Kids should be kids, they should not worry about looks and just have fun and play! The world has these unreal expectations about looks, weight, it affects even the youngest! I can’t imagine my kid telling me this! It would break my heart! I have always felt like the ugliest girl as well! I had some insecurities and people always confirmed these, so it makes you really insecure. If people also say it, it must be true! By getting older it gets better, you learn to love yourself and your imperfections! I have always heard I was too fat to be a model, my teeth made me ugly, so I should never smile, I was prettier then. But look at me, I made it this far! I host some of the coolest metal fests and tattoo conventions in Europe, I have been in video clips on magazine covers, thank u haters for motivating me! I mean... don't let people stop you, keep it real and follow your dreams! It is hard but do it!! It will get you far! And you don't need to get your clothes off to be successful! Never forget this, girls!!! We are not lust objects! We are sexy but don't need to be trashy! 


You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise

I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.
Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise

Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.

I rise
I rise
I rise

XXX Femke

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